apr21

so many things happen after fantazia.. all kinda shock me.. this just show me how life is like.. so unpredictable.. went sch today le.. for class.. nv really do much.. i am the new chairperson .. haiz.. nic sabo de.. lol.. went meeting and then had dinner.. found out another shocking thing when i went studio 73..

jiayou da jia.. see u guys on sat if i free gonna suport u guys!

apr20

Cherish..











so long and gd nite..

a video which make me tear again...

apr18

yesterday... which is apr17.. was the first day of fantazia.. did nt blog cause i freaking tired after that day.. i dun like perforamce on that day.. too many screw up.. of course my helena was the wrose wan.. forget 3 count plus forget steps.. cannot forgive myself.. been thinking.. fredy already modified it to a extent that i am able to do de but yet i still cant do it.. feel like stabbing myself... haiz..

today.. apr18... woke up late cause i too tired liao..and today cry a few time.. think everyone gonna call me a crybaby.. 1st was during the fullrun.. i forget helena steps again.. i cried after that item.. thinking wtf i am doing... keep making the same mistake over and over again.. 2nd time was the time when daphne sing tribute.. damm touching can... after that cry bcos of the debrief... thought of many things.. most ppl started crying during debrief.. so after that went home le..
fantazia is over le.. wan to give special thanks to some ppl

ann- thank you for giving this opportunity to dance in this production and also motivate when i feel low..

fredy- thank you for teaching that one eight.. after many modification i still cant give what u wan.. but u still talk to me patiently and willing to guide me along.. without u.. i cant dance helena properly.. thank you.. u r really a amazing choreographer and fren... thanks.. learn alot frm u..

strollerz- thanks all strollerz for listening to my problems and my bull shit.. u guys always give me the movtivation to work harder.. thank you

and thank you every single one who is invlove in fantazia.. without any of u.. the show cant go on.. jia you.. !! love u guys.. love NRA.. thank you... paiseh.. ang moh bo ho

apr16

fell sick.. dunno y.. think i too tired and i drink too much coke zero.. went to make the nra logo.. and hang it up.. i feel very man zu.. cause i do part of it.. although nt very nice, but i still like it alot.. everything is place in there le.. left that fantazia logo haven hang.. during full run.. is a disaster.. injuries happen, wrong formation, forget steps.. mic no sound .. make me feel damm scared and uncomfortable..
and as usual.. i screw up in helena.. and also other items.. i forget steps and formation.. even till now.. i am sorri to all cause i did not do my part well enough.. cant even meet the basic requirement..

i really things will turn better on apr 17 and 18..
and hopefully by next morning i hope my cough, headache and my back will be fine..
zhao..! jia you everyone..

apr13

screw up my helena today again.. sian ar.. i damm scared ar..everytime helena i will scared then will luan everything.. damm..

overslept like siao on bus when i make my way to woodland to collect my costume.. so bcos of that i reach home at 11 cause i keep dozing off..

starting sch soon... in another few hours..going to start my year 2 .. haiz.. slping soon le.. zhao!

apr11

Hate myself..
no confidence in myself..